Life's vortex

My life is a rollercoaster! My emotions go up and down and around again. It feels like being in a loop and yet it feels like a new step. My feelings are totally normal in the current situation. My boss decided not to go further with me, I decided to start working on myself with a psychologist again and now I am looking forward to a hopefully cheerful Christmas. It seems like The Secret of other common books: that the feeling that lives in you comes around. I was heading for changes in me and my environment is helping me a lot. Not only the decision made for me but also my friends and current colleagues are offering a listening ear and the shoulder to cry on.

The only lifetrap I seem to have in all my changework is myself. I tend to run away when things hurt, go too deep or touch my deeper self. I seem to be afraid of me, who I am. That also is the biggest question in my life for now. To quote Charlotte Church in her song Even God: Who am I is the questionmark. I could also quote the band l'Ame Immortelle (totally different flavour of music) for they wrote a song on Life's vortex. It means that life will keep repeating itself until you learned the lesson... Keep you posted!