Tired...

I have been so busy lately that I forgot to rest and take the pace down for a bit. I am running and rushing... Never resting for a moment... Flow is ok, but you have to know when to calm down. There needs to be balance... I will take a cup of tea, sit down on the couch... and try to do nothing... and relax... I need it!

Searching for a new job...

And that's hard working: running around, writing letters, meeting people, exploring the web... It's a fulltime job. I hate searching for new jobs because of the rejections. Now I found out it even could be fun! I meet people who are really inspiring... and the most important is myself!

Selfreflection is really important in looking for a job. You need to know who you are and perhaps even more important: who you want to become. You need to be able to explain this to others so they decide whether you fit in or not. Sometimes it is not only personal. It is your financial needs or working experience that count.

When I receive a rejection for a job application I decide not take this personal anymore. When I just do not fit in well enough but it does not tell I am not good enough. Nothing more, nothing less. This is all about self-esteem. About how to see yourself in the mirror...

Personal Branding...

Never knew... I am a brand! I am even thinking about a slogan (will keep it secret for now)! Yesterday I went to a workshop about personal branding and I was really inspired! The workshop was about how to create an original CV and how to make yourself irresistable when you apply for a job. I learned a lot about myself, surely a lot of positive things: my competencies, my passions, my talents, my curiosities, etc... I also learned that I could change a lot of things that are in my CV now. Next step: pimp my CV!

When applying for a job I often meet my insecure self... I often think I have nothing to offer... who could want me? Yesterday, I learned I have enough to offer. There are so many words that could describe me that I can hardly pick out five basic ones. Also we had to think about metaphores that could describe the personal brand and I found two... Now I am even irrestible to myself... unable to deny me... Yes! Something is changing! I am unique, authentique and original. There is no second me! I am focused and pure. I am sensitive and growing. This personal brand will improve! Ok, it will need a little time for I believe every change needs a few steps and you can only take one step at a time... but to take that step you need to be inspired... it has to make sense...

The door is open...

to a new period in my life. It is still a couple of weeks but I am already preparing. My job will end and I will start (hopefully) in a completely new organisation. I am preparing myself to be ready emotionally. I am preparing by applying for jobs and most importantly by searching for the best match. My current job was nice, nothing wrong, but still there could be a job that suits me a lot better. I am not alone in this travel. I have got a lot of people around me that help me with this. I am really thankful for them.

Looking out of the window it looks like nature is also changing. Singing birds seem to reveal that spring is coming. It is far too early for that as of course it is only half of January. In my life it seems I am also preparing to get out of my hibernation. I stand up, start to live and choose for myself. Just like the flowers that will be blooming in spring I am developing myself out of sight. Some people allready notice or check how I am doing. Allthough it is a tough time I am doing better than ever. There is still a lot to be done (as if it will ever be finished) but it is good.

Inspiration...

My keywords for this moment: creativity and inspiration. This means I try to think out-of-the-box. Nothing regular just outside the current situation. As I am looking for a job I am also looking for myself. Trying to get to know me. Who am I? Try to look further than the person in the mirror. What do I feel deep inside? What are my wishes and thoughts for the future?

One thing I know now is that I like to be inspired... I like to 'explore strange new worlds'. With that I do not mean new countries or regions but new ways of thinking. If you would compare to dancing I want to try to find a new step, a new direction... same rythm, same dance, but new step... I noticed lately that if you read 'from change to change' quickly it says: 'from cha to cha'. Makes me think of one of my favourite films: 'Take the lead'. This is what I start to do, take my own steps in my own life. Might sound easy, but for me it's a big step...